her pride ♥ her prejudice

《新年2012》

2012-02-09T01:29:00.000+08:00

记得小学的时候，老师总喜欢在农历新年的假期过后让我们写一篇《新年记》。

回想起来，我已经离开小学十年了。怎么觉得想写一篇简单的作文都变得那么难。

唉～觉得好对不起老师哦。还记得小学的时候的作文不错，副校长还曾经鼓励过我当记者或作家什么的，想起来还觉得很可笑。

新年嘛，自从从关丹搬来吉隆坡之后，新年气氛就没有以往那么热闹了。

虽然在吉隆坡出世，却不曾把这里当成家乡。反而把关丹，我长大的这个小城市当成自己的家一样。

我们家的新年很“坎坷”。

当报馆PR的老爸封年三十晚至十五都必须应酬各大会馆、政党的新年团拜。所以，我们家从很久以前就没有吃团圆饭的习惯了。虽然老爸的家族蛮大，但自从奶奶过世后，就很少聚在一起庆祝新年了，顶多也只是互相拜年吃个饭而已。

而外婆和妈妈的家人都早已移民到国外了，见面就更不容易了。

我家老妹呢，自从加入了媒体学，新年就变成了半个“圈内人”。不但加入了某个电台的车队北上南下，还跟某电视台的艺人一起主持新年节目去。

不甘寂寞的我，当然不管路途遥远都会赶回关丹和同学朋友们聚一聚啦！

回到老家，大街小巷都能看到很多熟悉的面孔，感觉特别温馨。

最开心的事，莫过于可以跟很久没有见面的朋友们喝喝茶、聊聊天啦～

今年的节目特别多，不知道是不是大家都真的长大了，更会珍惜相聚的时光。

新年嘛，当然不忘了相老师们拜年啦。跟好久没有见面的老师们聊天，奇怪的是感觉一点也不陌生。

短短的新年我过得很充实，不管是跟家人的“不齐人新年”或和朋友们一起过的新年，我都觉得很快乐。

新年就这样过去啦，是时候收拾心情好好发奋咯！

还有还有，最近收到一份“炸弹”。不知道是好消息或坏消息。
我被邀请到一个大舞台去展现我的个人show。心情非常忐忑，压力太爱我了。好好加油吧女孩！

*ps 全文用华语，真是精神可嘉 =p

不过华文退步了，请见谅 =)

2012

2012-01-01T03:32:00.006+08:00

♥ Happy New Year 2012 ♥

whoops =p

new year, hmm i shall start my first post with some 2011 reviews & resolutions.

life's been good, 2011 can said as a very fruitful year for me.

i finally complete my 3 years diploma in fashion design. never stop chasing my dreams and destinations. // i travelled to india & experieced different lifestyle. // i've joined stylo emerging designer competition & try every of my best to prove myself. // i learned korean. // i pass my grades with flying colors with all distinctions. // i managed my time wisely so that i never neglected people besides me. // and before 2012, i found someone that really cares about me =)

for few years, I've been spending my new year eve with broken heart.

no more emoness this year and also in the future. because i have came to realised and finally understood that, people comes and go in life. nothing you can keep holding on if fate never let you do so.

the important is, you treasured every moment and you do everything sincerely from your heart.

I'm not a person with good EQ and yet I am very lucky that i have a lot of friends who really really care about me & very sayang me.

Really really love you guys & am proud to know all of you in life ♥

in 2011, I finally realise that Simple is Happiness.

happiness comes from satisfaction. I became happier because i learnt how to let go.

I took all my bad experiences as lessons and without all these lessons, I can not see who I am now. You lose something, you will also gain something in the same time.

I was once ego, taking wrong things too serious and neglected things that is more important to me.

In 2011, I finally realised.

my 2012 diary

been practice to plan my days using diary. christmas pressie from my jellybean isaac ♥

In 2012, I would like to see a better me.
In 2012, I will start to earn some money & most important know how to save them.
In 2012, I wanna travel. study & discover this world.
In 2012, I wanna spend more time with my family, friends & my ♥
In 2012, I wanna do more exercises and have a healthier lifestyle.
In 2012, I hope i can became prettier. teehee.

2012, love you ♥

my window display project ♥ love stories

2011-12-29T01:28:00.012+08:00

girls ♥ love stories, everybody ♥ love stories, especially high school love stories =p

well, think most of you watch 《那些年我们一起最的女孩》 (you are the apple of my eye)

one of my fav of this year =) interesting storyline, funny yet touching.

♥

九把刀 9 swords version of love story 《那些年》

talented & romantic author/director. support!

Thailand love story《初恋这件小事》

another confirm-cry movie. lol. a must watch movie. even my guy friends love it!

oh, and Jay Chou's high school love stories 《不能说的秘密》

♥

i made my version of love story hehee

in my window display final project on last july =)

My First Love Story

decorated the scene as in some young couple dating in a classroom, doing revisions together. bla bla bla.

♥

The Making, using resources of the college classroom and own diy.

preparing my background.

fake books.

before

& after =) with added lighting using warm color spot light.

♥

Details

On the mannequin.

Table top display.

realistic, added for fun =p

window display accessors, ms wong & mr azreen

♥

L O V E

M A T I L D A

at the backstage

2011-10-29T01:06:00.009+08:00

there is always a women behind a successful men; there is always a bunch of people in backstage behind every performance.

The Secret Life of Nora, consider as my first paid project after my graduation & also my first experience working with a team of celebrities singer and dancers.

well, thou the team i worked with was just a small group of less than 10. but i think every small contributes counted =)

working in a musical backstage is very different than working in a fashion show backstage. they need so much people to produce a successful musical. from scrip writer, directors, casts, stunts, musicians, backdrop designs, dressers, wardrobe to lightings. i was like, wow i never know there is a swam of people hiding at the back while the show is on live. haha.

we took a month to produce the garments. part of it was rejected, too bad.

secretly took some photos during their rehearsals. shhh. i dont know whether isit allowed, but i snapped some =p i guess i should be a problem for them cuz the show has ended. whoops~

taken 3 days before the show. bringing in all the garments we made.

this is how the backstage looks like.

jaga-ing our corner. tee hee =p

for the boys.

& the girls.

able to peek the show during rehearsals.

working space at the backstage.

tv showing live on stage so that the people in the backstage are ready to stand by.

food is a must for us =D

only manage to take very lil photos

& this is the only photo i have with my working friend, lehbin.

have so much fun with her =)

♥

stay tune for matilda's new collection ♥

coming soon this december.

2011-10-10T04:11:00.004+08:00

我已经看开了你也应该不用再为以前的事情感到耿耿于怀

如果我们还是朋友对不起这三个字可以不用一再提起

我没有将回忆删去不是因为我还惦记着过去

只是觉得每一个在我生命中所发生过的事情我都不想忘记

人会不断成长我知道在很久以后当我翻阅那些回忆的时候

我会很庆幸我曾经遇见你而那个时候的我会是微笑的

我知道你现在很幸福也希望你能一直幸福下去

而我也没有因为这样而过得不好我也一样幸福

=）

2011-09-25T03:49:00.002+08:00

3 months after our graduation, we met up @ inti subang for our mini fashion show. life changed within 3 months. we're now talking bout works but not assignments anymore =)
i heard no more "eh, u got do abc's work argh?'' or ''later what time class ar?"
what are we discussing now is like "eh where u work argh?" and "u work there they pay u how much ar?" Lol, while exchanging or business card.

its not easy along the way, but im glad i met them and peoples who taught us alot in our studies.
looking back at my youngest juniors at the backstage today, i had this deep feeling like, lol im so old already. not!
hmm i saw myself from 3 years ago. everything seems so fresh and new to me. getting nervous while changing the models. adoring others designs and always been telling myself, one day i wanna be like him/her.

if u said life is like a burning candle. what i think is, life is like climbing a staircase. people changes and learn new things in every level. now i might be talking bout the begging of my career life. maybe next time, i will be talking bout my husband, children and other things that im gonna experience in life.

lots of my friends might say, matilda changed dy, not like lastime dy. well guess i am. but im always still me, am still matilda =)

no pain no gain. im happy with the changes in me ♥

rolypolyholyday ♥

2011-09-15T23:33:00.000+08:00

안녕 ♥ been lazy blogging after having my new baby, samsung galaxy ace. facebook for android is so efficient =p

well, since kyren requested for updates, so i guess i wont wanna disappoint her. hahaha.
life's been great after my graduation =) im gonna enjoy my holiday till end of december meanwhile picked up some freelances for karaching$$

holiday is about sleep whenever u feel like sleeping, wake when ever u feel like waking up.
holiday is about meeting up with friends for breakfast, lunch, teatime, dinner and supper.
holiday is about vacation.
holiday is about picking up classes.
holiday is about watching drama from morning till night.

♥ 한국이
yess, u guys know im a fans of korea. korean food, korean dudes, korean show bla bla bla. learning korean for the sake to can actually go flirt a korean dude. hahaha joking. finished my level one test today and will be proceeding to level 2 next month. i can now read, write & speak simple korean. yay! =)
for my qinggus here would like to enroll the class, check it out this link.
korean language class
new intake is coming soon, register it now!

♥ freelance

as one of the stylo top 12 contestant 2011, we're hired to worked on with the garments of this theater show The Secret Life of Nora staring Tiara Jacquelina and Ryan Silverman. fyi, it was the same production team as Puteri Gunung Ledang few years back and if u had been to pavillion during raya season, guess u might had seen the posters in the main concourse. oh ya, the trailer is shown in tgv cinema too. grab a ticket and u may see the garments we made for the dancers and casts =)
for more information, here!

♥ shows!
two coming up shows that i've mention earlier, inti anniversary show on september and my graduation show on december! working hard on it. matilda, fighting!

♥ vacationss
for sure i will be traveling this year just that havent really plan yet =p
thailand? korea? taiwan? where else? any ideas?

♥ eat, play, sleep?
eat, pray, love?
yumcha, singk, hanggai, movie?
buy, buy, buy, buy?
whatever~ just gonna have fun for this half year ♥
buahahaha.

india: new delhi ♥

2011-08-29T00:35:00.000+08:00

back to new delhi, the capital of india after our fashion show =)
delhi is very different compare to jaipur. people here are modern and most of them come from middle-range status. we set up early in the morning from jaipur so that we can spend longer time shopping at the town.

new delhi is filled up with buildings.

checked-in in hyatt regency hotel and off! for shoppings~

one of their common public transport in town. i dont know what it called. it looks like those tut-tut car in thailand. cute~

calcultta i am a taxi driver in calcultta~ hehee.
we actually sat on one of these to travel around in delhi.

gee~ all their cars are so cute so vintage. bean.

trolley car selling softdrinks. dare to drink? do you?

custom check in every shopping mall entrance. hassle sia.

their shopping malls are just like ours in kl. same merchandise but slightly cheaper.
zara, our fav shop ♥

charles & keith go international!

coffee bean is super cheap in india. but their cafe dont have wifi. hmm.

porcelain antique.

precious jem stones, always one and the only.

kamasutra books everywhere in india. 18sx!

our next pit stop, bazaaaar.

spent alot on fabrics and handmade accessories here. things are really cheap in bazaar =D

bargain. tee hee. cheaper? cheaper?

he asked me to take a photo of him =)

the fabrics are colorful kan? same color with different tones and shades.

henna is a must in india. this cost me only rm3 =)

mine's done, gerald's turn~

jang jang!

back to the hotel after our tiring day in town. so, matilda was in room 525 =p

urban room.

gee love this very-sexy-see-through bathroom. im gonna have one in my future house. tsk tsk.

nice lighting for good make up =)

vogue india for the lonely midnight.
good night delhi.

♥

last day in india =(

mission before leaving was to visit pearl academy of fashion delhi branch.

love their colorful campus. artsy school.

they brought us to visit their foundation classroom. and and, this is one of their foundation artwork! proness!

huge painting done by foundation students.

three dee using aluminum.

texture treatment on different kinds of materials.

senior works. embroideries as details.

they designed their own fabric. so cool right.
i wanna learn~

photos session for the three musketeers while lecturers are having meetings with india's lecturers =p

epic.

♥

it was fun thou the trip was a lil rush. glad that i was chosen to represent the school and inti laurent malaysia. i always felt thankful cuz my college really gave me lots of supports mentally and physically. for this trip as well, we got fully sponsored =D i left a lot of good memories and experiences.

a short trip with long deep feelings, spiritual retreat.
india is a poor vs wealth country. looking at the different lifestyle and cultures, i felt that im born blissful enough, very =)

im sure you will love to pay a visit to this beautiful and unique country ♥
incredible india.

india: the pink city ♥

2011-08-20T01:19:00.002+08:00

Jaipur is one of the finest planned cities of India, located in the semi-desert lands of Rajasthan. The city which once had been the capital of the royalty now is the capital city of Rajasthan. The very structure of Jaipur resembles the taste of the Rajputs and the Royal families. At present, Jaipur is a major business centre with all requisites of a metropolitan city.
- wikipedia

why is jaipur called the pink city?
from my research, it is called the pink city because once upon a time in 1853, the buildings in jaipur is all painted pink to welcomed the Prince of Wales and the building is still remained in the color of pink.

pink! too bad due to our schedule, we only got half day to visit this very pre-modern city. cant get to take a lot of pictures in jaipur. most of my photos was taken from the car window =(
whyyy?!! ishhhhh. do hope i could spend a lil longer there.

everything in jaipur remained soo authentic sooo vintage. if u adores cultures and traditions, u will love jaipur. people still dress in tradition clothes, playing traditional games, transport in horses and camel, people sitting ONTOP of the bus. yes, its like what we seen on tv, sitting on the bus.

passed by narayan temple.

and amber fort in the car.

drop by amer fort for 5mins to take some photos.

nearly sunset, still sunny.

old jeeps.

feel much better sitting inside an ac car.
the weather is seriously hot, heat stroke.

in jaipur, u can see this kind of bamboo houses all over the street.
the driver told us that it is their water supply.

jaipur is famous with their potteries, handicraft, jeweleries, leather and all kinds of textile works.

facade of hawa mahal built with pink sand stone.
impressed with this old palace. it is so beautiful.

all kind of transports share the traffics. lol.

cute scooter.

leather shoes. aladdin style =)

look at the person. how he carries the barrels in his bike.

and this!

old tyre shop. love the feel thou.

traffic is being crazy in jaipur. no traffic rules at all.
people dont really follow the traffic lights. horning sound everywhere!
they have to horn whenever they pass by the other car. sounds like saying hi?
driver drives super fast and and they dont break even there is big hole or bumps.
very bad air and sound pollutions.

shopping at rajasthan market. got lots of souvenirs there =)

rich vs poor.
rich people in india really got very nice houses.

passed by a very old petrol station. style.

mailbox. hou yao feel =p

night scene of amber fort.

thats my half day trip in jaipur ♥ we went for dinner with the people from inti laureate and pearl academy in a very nice restaurant. their curries taste so good and they have my fav tandoori chicken! maybe i wasnt really adapt to the heaty food there and got constipation till almost fainted. lol.

jaipur would be a nice place to expose ourself to different cultures and lifestyle. i think i suits people like our age of 20 30 cuz you will need alot of energy to walk under the sun. would love to pay for another visit someday ♥ but definitely not during summer!

♥

more photos on fb

india: matilda's mission in pearl academy of fashion, jaipur ♥

2011-08-12T19:46:00.001+08:00

As soon as we settled our luggages at La meridian in Jaipur, we were picked up to Pearl Academy of Fashion, which is also the main location of the trip. Pearl academy is one of the top fashion school in india and as you know, india is famous in textile.

we were brought to the conference room for a short briefing and were taken around to visit the surroundings. personally got attracted by the architecture of the academy. i didnt took much pictures of it, here's some of those. so let check it out.

top view of the academy (taken from their model) it is basically an open air building.

every classrooms is see through! interesting.
but when it comes to summer, students got melted down in it!
lol can u feel the sun in this picture? i seriously cant survive in this weather.

school compound.

some basic rooms that u can find in every fashion school =)

children dummies ♥ isnt that cute?

textile machines.
traditional and modern. hope i might get a chance to learn one of these =)

choreography for runway. yeah, the models were practicing for our shows tmr.
all of them are students.

mount aravalli? they told me this is the oldest mountain in the world.
yes, we can see through from the college =)

part of their artworks, what i love the best from them is fabrications! which also inspired me the most in this trip. have a look of what i captured!

fabrications made by students. they are smart in picking materials, colors and workmanship in details.

found this poster in their gallery. draped with calico.

samples of their works in the gallery =)

knitted chandelier. how i hope i can bring this back to my room =p

new try out. yarns on tiles.

love this ring ♥ mcqueen style.

♥

14052011
day 3 early in the morning, we got back to the college to prepared for the big day!
huhu~

the international fashion show organize by laureate education group.
first cross over by PJ College of Art & Design, Malaysia X Pearl Academy of Fashion, India.
=D

wee~ the compound is filled with water.
we're having a open-aired-water-ground show =p

hardworking team building up our runway in the middle of the sun.
it is around 1pm in the dessert of 40 degree celcius. claps for them!

thanks to the models who willing to cooperate. i think they are very professional in the way they work although they are not any supermodels. good try for the students!

i can said that this is the most relaxing show ever cuz everything is well prepared! the team followed 90% of our instructions in styling that we've sent earlier to them. they specially choreographed the show according the musics i've sent them earlier. of coarse, not the normal kind of catwalk. they prepared the same hairstyle and make up of what ive planned. they even prepare assistants for us in backstage! this was the first time i dont have to put myself in hassle =D

my models =)

gerald chia, amm le raoul & matilda L ♥
both gerald and amm presented one garments each cuz their other garments was stuck in the customs =(
im luckier cuz all 4 of my garments were successfully brought over =)

an hour before the show starts.

always standby in the backstage =)

my turn~♥
my show was set at the last as finale =)
presenting the rose windows.
yes, all my designs were inspired by the rose window thou they are from a different collection. lol. thats the logo!
still waiting for the videos cuz i never saw how they actually walk.

did some changes in both of my paper dress.
i wasnt really satisfy with what i did during stylo'11 cuz it wasnt perfectly touched up.
hmm, maybe this is the chance for me to present it the 2nd time =)

totally changed the side of the garments (the red one)
gee, happy that most of my friends realized the changes even from the pictures. better?

garment there

garment four, my beloved dress ♥

all the ladies ♥

mission accomplished!

do re ME fa so =)

the students are kind enough to volunteer themself for the runway =) im happy with their presentation thou they are not tall and skinny. they really made me proud!
best that i love the student body of the academy who worked so hard for this show.
too bad, the shoes i brought to india can fit my model. and india is still a conservative country so my models cant show too much of the legs. anyway, round applause for everyone!

footprints for amm and matilda ♥
photos by gerald

♥

souvenier from the college, good books =)

now i can make my funny faces after stress ♥

ps: more photos in fb.

india: matilda's day one in india ♥

2011-08-05T20:49:00.015+08:00

okey i should be posting this up 2 months ago =x
yes, its about my trip in india. was thinking, should i post this up since its already an outdated issue. since i heard some juniors planning to go india for study/intern trip. and lots of my friends would love to know what is happening when they saw some articles in magazines regarding to the trip. i guess, it would be nice if i blog something about it? hmm i guess so. lol.

well, i never put india in my trip list as im the kind of person who enjoy cool weather and urban life =p untill i went, i started to fall in love with the land and the culture.
me and both of my junior, gerald & amm, was invited by our connected school, pearl academy of fashion to participate in a fashion show in india.
i was like, u sure? india? i was told like only 3 weeks advance before the trip. as it is not for holiday but mission, we have so much to prepare, hectic! well, glad that every things goes well and im glad that ive been to this very unique country =)

we departed from klia on 12052011 together with out overweight luggages and parcels.

glad that we were fully sponsored by PJ College of Art and Design & Inti laureate including our stays and air tickets =)

dawn on the airplane, we're crossing the broad for around 6 hours.
fyi, india is 2 1/2 hours later than malaysia. GMT +5:30.

meal in plane, indian food.

arriving in new delhi, capital of india at late night.
india was in mid summer and the average temperature is 40 c. faint!

matilda is totally hungry, tired and sticky. need a bath!

rarely shoot myself in naked make up + tiring face. lol.

we slept over in the airport while waiting for our flight to jaipur, the main place of this trip.
much better than what i aspect! they had clean and nice airport.

washrooms. gags. every washrooms were differentiate with different ethnics in india =)

my first spend in india was mcd =p
its called the paneer wrap.

too bad they dont have free wifi in india =(
its really hard for us to update our news with our family. but luckily we found a vodafone booth to login ourself in fb.

boarding to jaipur early in the morning in kingfisher airline.
sounds like some beer and alcohol brands right? yes, kingfisher is a beer in india. lol.

mini plane. hmm, that was my 2nd time flying on a mini jet =)

group of us =) gerald is holding the camera.

mini plane with mini mineral water. so cute right~

yeah~ arrive at jaipur, the pinky city ♥

we need few big big cars to bring our parcels. our driver is friendly and helpful.
hmm, i have to say people in india are very friendly and helpful =)

jaipur airport. from the picture, can u feel the warmness?
its 42 degree celcius on that day.

we settle down in Le meridian hotel, jaipur.
love their maharaja concept. i feel like im a one-day-princess-jasmine =p

im inspired with what they wear, all the workers dressed up in their traditional costumes..

bell boy.

lol arent they look alike =p

they played traditional musics to welcome us =)

color combinations, blue and red. hmm.

service officer. look at his funky pants. nice right?

room 205. lets check it out!

the room.
im the only girl there so they provide me an own room =)

big big mirror ♥ can i bring it home?

shower.

bathtub.

watching pocahontas, coffee, aircorn, huge bed after a nice bath. what a life =p
oh fyi, they had their own fashion chanel in india. so envy~ when will we have one in msia?

so, thats my day one in india ♥

ps: more photos in facebook.

my diploma graduation day

2011-07-27T21:19:00.002+08:00

16072011, its my day ♥ i graduated from diploma in fashion design & technology. yay!good news, i got awarded as one of the best student for 2011 graduates =)) thanks god i made my family proud! feel so excited at that moment and now we can shout out loud.

我得咗啦！
lol, it means yesh, im done! something like that..

3 years of my diploma life. what i got is not the fame and awards, but the experience and steps going through the whole journey. i enjoy every stress given and i love meeting people and all the challenges. people often asked me, you did well for spm in science, why did you willing to drop science? they made it sounds like i had sacrifice some big things. lol funny. im glas that my family is supportive enough and im glad that i found what i want =)

i share the same cgpa marks with rui hua, a senior of mine from interior design =)
congrats to her.

always been average since kindergarden to high. lol. finally got something that i really can membanggakan my family =)

very appreciate to star scholasrship and the college for sponsoring me the whole coarse. im not from a rich family, it not easy to raise a design student cuz it really cost alot, materialsss! thank you for the education fund =)

thanks to my family who always gave me lots of support. sometimes i get so bad temper when i had not enough sleep. sorry =( been making u guys worry bout me once i got so crazy doing work. thank you for being patience and always gave me all your encouragements and never stop me in chasing dreams.
mom use to study art, but she had financial crisis so she stopped halfway. mom, i continued the study for you~

my petite family ♥

my dad supported even though he is soo tired that day. hehe.

kai mama rushed down from kuantan for attendance. thankyou =)

thanks to all my lecturers who always gave us support mentally and physically. thank you for selected for my india trip and will always remember and make use of what you all had though me =)

with fashion hod, mr azreen.

lovely but crazy classmates. love seeing you guys doing stupid things ♥

my dearest foundation classmates, closest groups in college. although we are not in the same coarse, but u guys gave me the greatest supports. cheers to all the future designers~♥

senior coarsemate. so called cina group in fashion. miss the time spending overnight and yuncha session with you guys =)

and and

my junior besties and friends whos been not able to attend the convo.
thanks for the wishes and pressie.
see you guys on graduation show on december, no reasons for being absent this time! =p

♥

oh before i end, take a look at the dress inside my graduation gown.
yesh yesh! rose window again. fav ♥

never stop being narcissism =p

okey, this is matilda. always being syok sendiri =p

♥

the end
gonna miss all of you

so you think you can style?

2011-07-20T20:59:00.004+08:00

hello there ♥ life's been great!
well well, here to announce that my team is selected to participate in this styling game called,
So You Think You Can Style?
organised by Tongue in Chic & Parkson Pavilion.
we need on-the-spot votes on this saturday 23th july 2011.
time, 2pm - 4pm.
drop by to support our team after some shoppings/movies for the mega sales season ya ♥
need ya valuable votes.

for more information, log on to Tongue in Chic blog post.

hope to see you there ♥

xoxo,
matilda & kelvin & mabel

10 reasons why SINGLE is the best

2011-07-08T01:57:00.000+08:00

ppl has been asking me, hey why dont u get a bf for urself since uve been single for quite a while. yes, im single for 2 years. in the age of 21, i dont think being single is a problem.

guess there is lots of girls out there are still single/choose to be single. the problem is not that we have no guys like us or we're leftover. we just wanna be single before we found someone who is our true love and treat us with his true heart. yes, sometimes we will feel lonely. we might envy those couples around us. we will also wanna be in the same status like them. being pamper and bla bla bla.

well, here some factors that why single is the best (personal opinion. haha)

we can have lots of male friends and good buddies with a opposite gender. u wont have to chill down ur bf when ure popular among guys. dont have to explain anything for being so socialize with opposite genders.
we can hang out with friends more often. u dont have to get permission from your bf/gf to hang out with friends of different gender.
you know how to take care and love yourself. you've been handle all problems on your shoulder. hence, u get stronger eventually.
you will have more chaser. lol. in the same time, u meet different types of guys/girls. slowly, u know which kind of person suits u and which is the best to spend for your entire life.
you can always concentrate on your studies, career and own hobbies. love to spend my time learning new things, taking classes for self improvements on weekend or anytime u want.
pillow talk topics will not only be bfgfbfgf. life has so much of wonders!
u can wear what you want. hot pants, short skirt, spaghetti etc. realise lots of guys do not like their gf to show too much of flesh. haha.
try to do this when you're alone walking down the mall. get urself dolled up and show your confidence, for sure u get better treatments and services from male service assistant. might get extra fries from mcd services? haha. imagine if u are bringing ur bf, no one will do that right =p
your destiny will not only be your bf/gf. your destiny will be your own future, career and life u always wanted. when will not afraid to seperate apart with ur bf/gf for study abroad. no worries for being apart.
single trains us to became tougher, stronger. you wont have to afraid someone might broke your heart.

single might be lonely, but u only know what u want when u are single.
so cheers! single ladies rocks! ♥

dedicated this last song for all the girls

♥

7 days to final

2011-06-23T02:36:00.007+08:00

hi blog, been missing you for a while =)

final is hectic, i had double workload compare to others cuz ive spend my previous semester break and schooling days doing STYLO competitions and preparing for my show in india.
never have time to blog nowadays. anyway, i will still always update myself in my fb =)

recent photo, even concealer cant cover my dark circles and eye bags.

its my final final! as usual, i didnt have enough rest. haha. even when i have time to rest, im insomnia. =( worries came across almost every night. worry about my final assessment, final visual merchandising project, worry bout presentations and bla bla bla. pre-graduate depression? maybe.

a lot of them thought designing is easy. they though we only have to draw and sew. nooo. there are still theories we have to study. writing rasional, constructions and handwork too. we spend not only time and money in doing design, sometimes we have to sacrifice alot of things in life too. health? relationship? but everything we lost, we gain some other things right?

sometimes we tense to forget what we want in the origin. life had become very realistic as we grow. we work, meeting different people and all these changes us. frankly, i changed damn lot. good and bad. realising my designs became matured but its not all by my heart. wonder why it became so commercial?

i took quite a while to decide the theme for my final collection. something that can represent me and myself, the person i used to be. hopefully it will be something successful.

trailer. soon to be seen on my december show.

graduation ceremony falls on 16th july. the day...

♥

mission accomplish

2011-05-28T02:39:00.004+08:00

back from my india trip 2 weeks ago. hmm it wasnt a study trip nor holiday. it is more like a task for me to accomplish, a fashion show and exchanging experiences with the students at india.
im happy that we made a good show =)

well, of coarse we did visited places and did some shopping at india, will update as soon as im done with my work. argh u know, been busy for previous stylo and this trip. gonna catch up with my assignments and final. aza aza~

of coarse, lots of appreciation to the college and inti laureate for sponsoring us for the whole trip. thank you ♥

by the way, im ending my diploma in 4 weeks time. my convocation will be at 16th july. fast right. super.
after these what shall i do? might study aboard? working? hoping that might get some offer oversea. i wanna study degree & master!!! lol.
oh btw, my finale show will be held end of the year, date to be confirm. looking forward to it =)

2011-05-12T02:37:00.000+08:00

leaving soon =) summer in india
excited and nervous in the same time cuz im gonna have my first time ever fashion show in oversea. huhu.

thankyou PJCAD for the fully sponsor ♥

leaving my comfort zone, hope for the best.
show time!

除下吊帶前

2011-04-30T03:17:00.000+08:00

薛凱琪 - 除下吊帶前
曲：方大同
詞：黃偉文
編：Edward Chan/Randy Chow/徐浩
監：Edward Chan/Charles Lee @ n o v a s o n i c

眼鏡除下耳環除下
應該吻嗎心似亂麻
我想停下也許只怕
太早放縱他採了嫩芽

回頭用餘下長夜談話能嗎
不想心軟給了他叫他胡亂去花
解開我的問題前其餘未會脫~下
情願扮作只能看而不能碰像幅畫~

除下吊帶前
承諾卻停滯不前
其實我盼望能一起不只一晚那樣短 wo~
隨便去痴纏
如被騙也沒人可憐
原諒我儲起最美一段
陪著愛戀開展
已說得很明顯

無遺地呈現全部全沒神祕
假使想細心看真每分緩慢揭起
好想挽手渡餘年才留下這禁~地~
情願與每天玩遊戲赢到遊戲至送出驚~喜

除下吊帶前
承諾卻停滯不前
其實我盼望能一起不只一晚那樣短 wo~
隨便去痴纏
如被騙也沒人可憐
原諒我儲起最美一段
如未進的花園

除下吊帶前
承諾卻停滯不前
其實我盼望能一起不只一晚那樣短
除下戒心前
查驗最愛並無虛言
原諒我極敏感極計算
回望我的缺點
太喜歡吃甜
從前先一再被騙

♥

推荐薛凯琪的新歌《除下吊帶前》
觉得这首歌很适合全部人听，尤其是男生
wyman 果然是 wyman，词写得那么的细腻
一个 “男人”，竟然能了解女生的想法，好厉害吔～

听过一句很经典的话，不能为她穿上嫁衣，就别解开她的内衣
如果没有想过要一辈子爱她，就不应该对她想入非非
担当不起的承诺，还是不要说出来比较好
有些伤害，没有想象中那么容易痊愈
就算好了，也会在身心灵留下疤痕

女生们谨记，要好好爱惜自己
不然被骗了也没有人同情自己
承诺的话可能只是甜言蜜语，蒙在鼓里的事情，有谁知道？
除下吊带前和除下吊带后，一切都可能不一样了
等到你后悔的那一天，可能很多事情已经来不及了

♥

by the way，刚看完 prince william & kate 的 royal wedding
超梦幻，我也要～ ♥
期望有一天也能够遇上自己心目中的 prince charming
不过比起 royal wedding，更想拥有一个 loyal wedding
LOVE ♥ 满满的爱情 happy ending

going jaipur

2011-04-23T01:15:00.004+08:00

hello hello ♥ i got good news again~
im going jaipur to showcase my collection next month. huhuuu!
gonna have my fashion show at pearl academy of fashion, one of the top fashion academy in india =D
going to showcase 2 collection over there. 2 designs from 'back to anthropomorphism' & 2 designs from 'the paper dress: rose window'

so glad that the college chosen me. one of the three student representative and also the only female/girl/lady who is joining this trip =)
the other two students will be gerald and amm, both of them are also the finalist for STYLO emerging designers 2011.

well, i will be leaving on 12th may and be back on 17th.

it will be a very hectic schedule, hopefully i have enough time to do some fabric shopping at the town.
im so excited but in the same time tension! praying hard that it will be a successful fashion show over there. arghh, stress!
challenging myself to another stage, challenging india's summer.

jaipur im coming!

stylo 2011 ♥ interview with the vampire

2011-04-16T21:55:00.010+08:00

every year in malaysia, we have 3 biggest event or fashion week which is STYLO, MODA & MIFA. STYLO falls on april.

so what so interesting bout STYLO?
for me, i like STYLO because they have everything in theme.
this year, STYLO fully turned over a normal looking stadium into Scarlet Theater.
Paper theme avant garde competition. Stylo vampire theme party. Shows we have, Aladdin Harem night, Glass slippers gala night etc. Moulin Rouge Gala night.

attended few of the grand event but aiks aiks, i only took photos for STYLO party.
* forgetful matilda either didnt charge her camera or forget to bring it out. aiks aiks.

♥

Stylo party "The Interview with the Vampire"
03042011

stylo party is one of the everybody-wanna-attend event in this industry. it isnt easy to get the invitation, really. as i have to showcase one of my garment for that night, i was invited for the show.

dress code, vampire.
i didnt go to the max but trying to looks a lil like Morticia in Addams family.

what so good when putting up a vampire look make up? you dont have to put lots of make up. hahaha. yea, dont have to cover your dark circles =p
oh look at the coffin behind me, there is a real person lying inside. so creepy you know.

he is paid to sleep. hahahahaha.

like the deco for the party. candles, red roses, chandeliers etc. so twilight.

even the washroom is decorated with candles and aroma.

while waiting, we had free flow beers =)

whos that? angie ng, host of the night.

show starts! finally he can came out. looks like mj. hahaha. =p

men's wear fashion by Key Ng, William Liew and Bon Zaina.

out of a sudden, they said that there is surprise for us.
thought what so surprising, strip dance == first time in my life.
no they didnt really fully strip, but still damn euuuuu, i dont know what to say.
for me, i think it totally destroyed the party. so gross.

vampire make up demo by maxfactor.
the make up artist darken and darken and darken my eyeliner. double up my panda eyes @@

in becoming a vampire. one eye done.
ohh look at the another vampire behind me, her name is angeline. she's also one of the finalist for STYLO mercedez benz emerging designer.

gerald, jia ying, me, nelly and amm.
okey, i got the shortest leg. grrr.

accompany gerald to the backstage to repair his garment.
meanwhile.. instead of helping him, we went there and play. sorry gerald xp

nelly isnt furtado. she's the girl next door.

my edward cullen, kelvin. lol.

jiaying, she's my backstage assistant. helped me alot. thanks dear ♥

the groupie. nice horh this photo =p

before leaving, not forgetting to take photos at the red carpet =)

vintage gerald.

kelvin wai wai.

the girls ♥

& the boys.

the end

don't go breaking my heart

2011-04-15T22:07:00.003+08:00

最近发现了一部不错的作品《单身男女 don't go breaking my heart》
这几年看了那么多爱情片，这样的题材很少见
一般的电影，一开头就已经知道最后谁会跟谁在一起
这部不一样，超精彩～

抉择爱情有时真的很难...
选择爱你的？
你爱的？
眷恋的？
还是条件好的？

爱情，一点都不简单

♥

bottom of my heart

2011-04-14T23:45:00.003+08:00

hello ♥ finally detached myself from workloads and competition stress.

restless 3 weeks, working non stop. scary scary crazy boo.
recently im like deep into workloads, i always felt that omg-i have-to-much-thing-to-do when i woke up in the morning. forgotten that it actually ended already =p

i dont know, i think im getting older. lots of my friends afraid that i will felt sad or dissapointed cuz i didnt win this stylo competition. some even worried that i will get emo and brough me out for dinner. hahaha.
hey guys, im fine, totally. afterall, im glad and happy that i actually complete the garments and the show was a sucess one.
sometimes i feel like, im not that matilda anymore. lol. the matilda now treat challenges and competitions as normal path 平常心. unlike years ago, i will feel upset and blaming myself if i didnt proceed well.
mayb, ive grown up? hmm.

learnt lots of lessons during the procedure in making the garments. so much things happened on the 3 weeks when im staying at college.

me and my friend used to stay back overnight at college 24 hours to complete our garments. only both of us, girls. soo dangerous that we actually didnt aware off.
until one day we went mamak at 4am, only we realised that we actually stalked by a bunch of malay guys. what if we are caught? long story, i dont dare to think about it.
lesson no 1, bad people are every where, should have more danger awareness.

lesson no 2, i lost my phone again. third time already! so angry of myself.
2 days before the competition, my phone was snatched in bukit bintang when i was doing my shopping for model styling. super clumsy me, i didnt even realise that people actually took my phone out of my bag. grrrr. hate it!

ohh a minor accident, i cut my toe when im sewing with machine. i dont know how it does, was cut by a sharp edge of the machine and it not stop bleeding T-T so scary, so many blood. but luckily its just a small cut and doesnt leaves any scars.

well, besides all these bad swey things, i learned about friendship.
im glad that i had so much people to helped me in completing this competition. too much of you, i cant even count the amount.

for those who helped me to sew the garments, those who helped me at the backstage, those who accompany me to stay overnight, those who bought me supper in the midnight, those who sent me back in the midnight, those who came and rescue when i was being stalked by bad people, thos who bough me flowers, those who drive me here and there, those who came and support my competition, those who concern bout me even i dont know etc etc.
soo sooo much of thankful from matilda ♥

sometimes i felt that im so lonely. thinking back, actually im not.
there is alot of you who love and care about me ♥

friends are meant to be. big hugs ♥

stylo mercedez benz emerging designer competition 2011 ♥ matilda's creation

2011-04-11T02:34:00.001+08:00

the awesome STYLO week has ended. collected most photos so its time to blog~

never ever expect that i will join any avant garde competition cuz im not a avant garde person. im glad that i made it to the final thou i didnt win. aikx.
so sorry for disappointing everyone. pout. i didnt put much confidence into it. not much of passion thou. i dont know, mayb i didnt put all my heart this time. kinda miserable. i dont know what i want. just do it blindly. my bad.

talking about my design, the rose window.
theme given for this year, Paper.

made out my mind to decide my design within 3 days. dateline was too soon, we have only 3 days to complete our designs, that is also why i use back my old idea using the construction of goth architectures' rose window. looking into its geometrical shapes, panels and constructions, still find it interesting for me to create something 3D and avant garde =)

inspiration mood board
roses are my fav ♥

design one was inspired by budding stage of roses.
dedicated to white that depicts purity and charm of a newly grown up women.

design two, blooming stage of the roses.
she became strong and valiant as she grown. bloom in red with a touch up of black.

here's the outcome after 3 weeks =)

design one took me longer time to finished it cause of its origami and details.
too bad, the details are too small that photographers cant captured =(
flashlights and sportlights are too strong and it covers the top stitches on the garment. it actually has two tones and texture. too too bad, it couldnt see on stage.
will do a photo shoot very soon. dont wanna wasted all effort.

second design were easier. i took about 5 days to figure out everything.
the only harder part is the construction of the belt to hold the wings/panels so that it wont fall down. balancing.
most people told me that they like this design more, mayb its the color? yea, more contrast of the colors on this garment.

from top to toe. a design must always comes with a matching shoe.
designed a simple red ankle boots to match back the whole outfit.
shoes are available in size 9 now. also accepting orders =)

music that i selected for my part, Lucia Di Lammermoorr by Vitas.
everyone knows him, his voice is awesome ♥

i gave myself a 68% marks.
should have better planning and put more efforts next time. thou i didnt fail, but i think i can do it better if i put in more confidence and passion. not to be lazy anymore ;)

oh ya, this album for other finalist's works or you can browse on fb, there is plenty.

♥

next, whole like to talk about
emotional part that i go through & what i've learn
STYLO fashion week (of coarse pictures of the parties ive attended =)

love, matilda ♥

stylo mercedez benz emerging designer competition 2011 ♥ teaser

2011-04-04T22:45:00.001+08:00

hello peeps ♥ im back~
been away for almost a month doing this competition. hmm, i felt lucky that i was chosen as one of the finalist for this big event.
though alot when i was doing the garments, i was like, stylo weyh, 2 years ago i was still a backstage dresser and usherette. never know that i can go this far, stylo runway.

theme of the year paper dress
inspired by cathedral and rose window
98% done by papers
2% other materials

roses of the day ♥

more happening posts after this stylo week. stay tuned! ♥

will be MIA for a while

2011-03-06T17:10:00.004+08:00

actually i got a good news and bad news to announce =p

the good news is
im chosen as one of the top 12 finalist of
STYLO Mercedes Benz Emerging Designers Competition 2011

the bad news is
i got only 3 weeks to finish 2 garments so most of the nights i will be staying up late or sleepover at college.

people around PJ area, do drag me out for dinner or tapao me some food if u wanna visit me at night =p

im now excited, nervous and stress in the same time.
but dont worry, i will always do the best as i can.
competition is not about the award but the experience u gained.
i think i can do it better than previous.

passion is the only thing i have & the only thing that i want is to have my own platform =)
good luck and all the best matilda!

♥

05032011 jay chou the era malaysia world tour 2011

2011-03-06T15:01:00.012+08:00

attended jay chou's concert for the second times after the one in stadium merdeka 3 years ago.
im not a huge jay chou's fans but i admire his talent and his creative a lot.

so i would say, i wont wanna miss any of his performances or concerts.
well of coarse, i love all his musics. its been 10 years already! i bet, no one doesnt know his songs, we grown up in his era.
personally always being inspired by his style, very europe-ish, antique-ish, classical reborn-ish, fantasy-ish and vintage-ish. haha. like like!

bought the ticket through my friend on the pre-sale few months ago.
the ticket was a lil expensive this time, so i only got a rm 230+ ticket.
sis went both day as she is so lucky to won tickets to enter rockzone area.

venue, stadium putra bukit jalil.
i prefer indoor stadium, at least u wont melt urself under rain or sunlight.
we went there earlier to hang around, tagged along my lil brother.

door opened at 7.
my view, quite far from the stage. but i rather sit down than standing. hehe =p

concert started 8.30 sharp.
nice kan my light stick? =D

the concert was fully booked. cant see any empty space.
the lights are so beautiful.

captured some photos during the concert.
lol, from my distance, of coarse u cant see jay chou.
hmm, mayb u would like to see some of the visual effects?

they used a lot of 3D laser neon light for this concert. very high tech and exciting.
u can see floating jay chou, futuristic stuff that got u wow! super high!

love song ♥ showing off his piano skills =p

okey, this was my fav part ♥
super high tech, like magic. he went into a white screen with 9 boxes and appeared in different box in a sudden.

i dont know how to describe. for those who doesnt attend, must go get a dvd to watch this part!

too bad, encore was a lil short for me =(
gimme gimme more~

success will only comes with a lot of hardwork.
well done jay chou! =D

21

2011-03-04T02:52:00.001+08:00

annyuung peeps ♥ im officially 21 on 22022011
cant really accept the facts that im a adult now. im now qualify to enter the casino and registered for election. wee~

birthday bash was amazing and fun.
party plan was canceled but i celebrated my birthday for a week with different friends. we had a lot of nice food and pressie. i felt more comfy this way then throwing a huge party =)

nice food warmed my stomach. hahaha.

too bad i didnt took all photos for this one-week-celebration. so far i only got two.

23022011 redbox sunway pyramid

went karaoke session with my design foundation friends at redbox.
they are all my 唱K的伴 =D

we had buffet. the food was sucks actually, but when ure hungry, all food are good =p

of coarse if you're a dot red/redbox/greenbox member, u can redeem vouchers on your birthday month. we had extra jar of drinks and sparkling juice for free =)

no alcohol but sparkling juice. so funny.

birthday cake?

groupie with all different different designers.
gee, im 21!

photobooths. retarded but fun =p

♥

26022011 alexis @ garden
photo credit to kevin koh

dinner at alexis kitchen bar with high school besties.
most were overseas and outstation =(

not a bad suggestion for dinner. i like the atmosphere.

so, we had boonmean, joshua, kevin who is holding the camera, nicole and kerina ♥

good foods are always fattening foods.
that is also why i gained weight. oppsie.

real carbonara ♥

fake carbonara.

bao bao liao~
nicole looks like pacman and im the orange. hahaha.

birthday cake. nom nom nom.

incomplete groupie. where's jojo, pongpong and ting ting? hmm.

LOVE ♥

pressie time ♥ thankyou so much. love all ya gifts.
im so glad that actually my friends know my flava. they know what to get for me =D

fruitylicious fair ♥

forever 21 love locket bag ♥
where's my key?

sewing machine and scissors necklace ♥

birthday bearbrick ♥
the plastic teddy

merry go round music box ♥
always remind me the origin of being a happy girl =)

i know some of those pressies are still on the way from overseas and in process of designing.
looking forward and excited.
appreciate it much! ♥

uhh ooh caught!
no no, i dont smoke. bad for lungs.
say no to cigarette.

itsbeenagreatweek♥
oh of coarse not forgetting to thanks everyone for the wishes.
blessings =)

26022011 ♥ 10 facts of the day

2011-02-27T03:33:00.003+08:00

imma panda

today, i realised that,

#1 恭和堂 bitter drink is so effective. i finally recovered from sorethroat and ulcers. yay!
better than any other leongchar or vegedrinks that only made me stomached.

#2 health is important than any other things on earth.
i felt very weak recently. i always though i can stand with my strength and faith even when im ill. unlike lastime. my body cannot support without taking pain killers. so bad.

#3 i dont have enough time to finish all my job tasks and competitions.
i have double workloads compare to previous years. sometimes, i think im gonna die handling assignments and bury with stress. overlap projects and datelines are killing, seriously.
but anyway, im prepare to fight and conquer with sweats and tears. thought its really hard sometimes, but i believe that there is always a sunshine after darkness.

#4 im already 21 years old. which means im officially an adult =D

#5 im actually worth to be loved and i shouldnt close my heart for too long, a friend told me today.
i think, i need more courage? i dont know. dont really understand what it means but got a lil touched with what my friend told me.

#6 jay chou's concert is in a week time. looking forward.

#7 im actually not putting on weight but having serious hydropsy. my metabolism system had gone wrong and i dont know what to do.

#8 i had only 30 hours sleep last week and ive been having nightmares of workloads and design even thou im sleeping.
sometimes i dont even know is that just a dream or im actually awake doing works.

#9 my $$ management had improve. i can stand not buying any tempted stuffs even it doesnt cost much. claps claps!

#10 my eyes are shrinking and my eyebags gonna explode any time soon.

realizing things lil by lil everyday, i think i can become a better person in the future? hmm.

=(

2011-02-19T02:50:00.004+08:00

3 months changes, hydropsy like water-bun

i dont know what happened to me recently =(
i felt very uncomfy. the symptoms are like pms but before that it doesnt happens to me.

i felt very depressed
worried of nothing
easy anger
easy nervous
no mood to do things, even having fun or go shopping
bone ache
hydropsy
heartbeat very fast
very hard to breath
keep taking deep breath
tremor when i hold things
cannot control myself and feelings
no appetite
vomited out my food when i ate
constipation
i felt tired but i cant fall asleep
dizzy when i walk
...

i dont know what are these seriously. all comes to me in a sudden.
im not even sick, just felt very uncomfy from top to toe.
i dont dare to tell my mom cause for sure she will force me to go for blood test =(
so if anyone here do experience these symptoms or any info bout it, do let me know.
actually im kinda worried now, i dont know what should i do.
very helpless =(
i need a hug, i need to cry.

dear st valentine

2011-02-16T02:01:00.005+08:00

how was your valentine?

mine was great.
i slept whole day. lol.
luckily i didnt emo this year cuz im already used to being alone during festivals.
somehow i realised something, friendship ♥
was glad that i had alot of friends who love me much.
thanks for all ya greetings, texts and choco.

done with all the orders, i made 5 pairs of teddy this year.
total 10 ♥

karlisyle & min ♥

she in pink polka dots blouse & pink cancan skirt ♥

he is black basic tee ♥

what u name your love?
they named each other sayang & bb ♥

i had my valentines day pressie too..

samsung external hard drive.
lucky draw gift.
okey wud, got it on valentines ♥
the god loves me, he knew i wanted one.
hahaha.

my future him, who are you? where ya from?

？

2011-02-10T03:30:00.004+08:00

如果挫折只是成长的一个过程
如果可以将过程剪短
如果伤害可以减少
如果记忆可以更短暂
如果我可以不去逃避
如果我会勇敢面对
如果我什么都不知道
如果我没有秘密
如果生活可以简单一点
如果我可以更有自信一点
如果想法不要太多
如果生活可以妥协
如果有人了解我
如果我可以原谅
如果我知道我想要什么
如果我可以再活一次
如果我不是双鱼座
如果我不是我

20110205 ♥

2011-02-05T04:10:00.001+08:00

其实，身边还有很多未完成的任务
满满的作业、比赛、报告、朋友下的订单等等的
不管了～
现在唯一想做的事——回去走走
买了张单程车票，回到我长大的地方
那边虽然没有城市的娱乐繁华
却多了亲切感和温暖
那里有我想念的海边、人和回忆
好怀念那种简简单单的生活

以前，家里就住在海边的附近
心情不好的时候就可以到那里吹吹风、看看海
现在的生活，每天都被埋没在工作、竞争和现实之中
尤其在选读了服设后，生活的圈子好像变得越来越现实了
大家都只往钱看，生活品质越富贵越显得有成就感
这样的生活方式，真的很累

记得在我高中的时候，常常羡慕城市的妩媚
觉得我应该留在城市的，毕竟自己也是城市出生的人
现在长大后，才发现我多了很多人没有经历过的东西
在海边长大的孩子，我们要像海边的巨石那样坚强
要像海风那样自由

好久没有裸着脚踏浪了，好想念那赤裸裸去感受大自然的感觉
听说那边雨季，不知道有没有机会去沙滩走走呢
过一阵子就要出发了，希望这一次的行程会有不同的获得吧
用 ♥ 体会那曾经的美好

《20110205》

da nien chu yee

2011-02-04T01:47:00.007+08:00

dong dong dong chiang~ dong dong dong chiang~
heyya peep, xin nien kuai le & huat argh~ lol. just wanna great u guys a very joyful lunar rabbit year. lil update of what i did today =)

some of my friends do asked me 'hey, did u guys christians celebrate cny?'
of coarse we do. im a roman catholic since baby. every first morning of cny, we attend thanksgiving mass with family before we go bai nien. =)

joss stick in church? believe it, we pay respects to our ancestors with joss stick.
hmm not that we believe that our ancestor spirits will really lay inside the 神主牌, it is just a ceremony of appreciation of their hard work and what they did. more else, joss stick is just a kind of 'chinese-candle'. yea.

gee, cute babies always distract me in church. he is so handsome. pinch =p

in my qipao. first qipao that i drafted and sew it by myself =D
finished it in 2 days. love the colors ♥

jade, my sis sunday school student.
she loves to stick with us and she always draw me lovely drawings and funny coupons. so cute ♥

after service, we had lion dance.

and fire crackers.

my lucky charm ♥ got it from salabianca.

angpao given by church. 2ringgit with bible verse from matthew 6:24.
nyeknyek, really shouldt be too $ minded. hehe.

gimmegimmegimme
chingchunmaelee♥

m&m ♥

2011-01-28T03:04:00.000+08:00

another collection of my couple teddy series ♥
theme: mickey minnie

mickey boy no. 99

minnie girl no. 22

22&99 secret code? i dont know what it means actually. do as ordered =)

oh alot of u asked me how do i sew the alphabets and teddies nose.
well, its actually embroidery using free hand.
hand sew stitches by stitches =)

convert their necklace into couple wrist band ♥
charm on genuine leather band.

why custom made teddy?

one and the only/pair, there is no other clone that looks alike
personalize message/name embroidered on teddies
hand made and sew
made by heart, not factory
imported feux fur from europe and usa
finest material was used
designed/personalised clothing
lifetime warranty

price
rm80 / teddy
rm5 - rm20 per clothing depends on design

limitededition

prepare for spring

2011-01-25T00:23:00.001+08:00

matilda is counting down for lunar new year =D

#1 qi-pao for day-1, to be done.

#2 recent topped up =)

#3 new accessories.

#4 hair accessories.

#5 not forgetting my bunny-ear-hairband that ive bought long time ago.
bunny hairband for bunny year =)

#6 new hair cut.

everything new..

hmm what else? shoes? bags?

newlife
seriously

random random

2011-01-22T02:54:00.002+08:00

dont know what to blog bout, no inspiration.
perhaps a random one =p

convosation with my 'student'...

sifu
yes tou dai
u know the next line?
next line?
'go to bed lo'
hahaha
ure like my mom not my student
wah
but u have to tell me bed time story before i sleep
once upon a time there was a girl named cupida
she helped peoples to kao lui
but she dun let others to kao her at all
coz of her nightmares
everytime some guy get near to her
the nightmare will pop out in her mind
then then?
-to be continue-
tomorrow night 2nd episode
hahahahaha
yes mom.
=.=
go to bed dy?
one episode of korean, pls pls >< =.=
enjoy la
wokie~

hmm so whats the point?
i got a student.
i dont wanna go to sleep.
i was named cupida, cupid + matilda.
i teach guys how to kao lui.
i dont let ppl to kao me.
i got a nightmare.
i still dont wanna sleep, stubborn.
i wanna watch korean drama, addicted.

though him to sew this piggy for his gf ♥

randomandomcupida
counting down on valentines.
gosh gosh i have pairssss of handmade teddies to rush up.
kan cheong.

step up two oh one one ♥

2011-01-12T15:51:00.000+08:00

anyong ♥ hello people im back to college! cant believe that, im in semester 6 already. yesh yesh! we're now the tai-kor/tai-kar-cheh in fashion department =p

students life is always the best and i love study so much ♥
looking back into the past, how much have we grown step-by-steps from an amateur who doesnt know how to sew clothes to someone who has such confidence in directing clothings and fashion. i think im gonna miss college so much after i left. sobs sobs.

well, assignments and projects are coming in one-by-one. gonna loaded with work and stress again. anyway, guess we're already used to all these. hmm so i think its fine for me. hardship leads to success, i always believe in that =) im ready to challenge!

bad news is, im not gonna continue my business for mass producing teddies, diys and accessories as what ive planned earlier. i dont have enough time to handle both studies and business in the same time 心有余而力不足 =(
would rather put all my time and energy in my finals, competitions and events.
somehow i will still accept customize orders. the only think is u have to let me know earlier and in advance. will need more time to finish it =)

oh yeah, im gonna turn adult soon. no more swaying by emotional. hope soo. work loads, job loads, appointment loads, really have to planned my time table professionally. work like an adult!

passionfashion

mary stayed out all night ♥

2011-01-07T03:07:00.001+08:00

finished this drama about a week ago.

not only in love with the drama the fashion and style.
their ost is good ♥

#1 my precious - jang geun suk
heartbreaking and warm at the same time. nice!

#2 拜托 my bus! - jang geun suk
rocker suk! my new alarm, cuz its noisy enough to wake me up. haha.

#3 hello hello - jang geun suk
this one nice~ super sweet.

#4 i will promise u - jang geun suk
making promises is man but whether u can make it or not, thats another thingy. i still believe that promises is a must in a relationship. hmm.

soo sweet huh ♥

i got one too ♥ hehehe.

saranghae♥

this person must be too bored =x

2011-01-05T02:13:00.000+08:00

when this

added up with this

came out as

thumbs up! pro huh~

两首让我又爱又恨即耿耿于怀的歌
加起来
原来那么好听
T-T

突然 ♥ 很疼也不知道为什么

应该是最近喝太多咖啡了吧 ?
刺激到心脏所以心跳很快很快

呵呵呵

（自言自语中... 无聊的我）

20110101

2011-01-01T04:51:00.006+08:00

我今天想卸下面具
承认自己有多脆弱
我欺骗了自己也欺骗了身边的人
说穿了我只是害怕面对
我接受不了所有的现实
逞强太久了
真的很累
发现自己已经一段时间没有哭了
忘记怎么哭的时候
才发现眼泪有多珍贵

今天倒数前的几个小时我颤抖了好久
我害怕听见欢呼声我害怕看见烟火
曾经在我以为最美丽的日子里我倒数寂寞
我一直告诉自己说这一天我要冷静地度过
心跳的频率撒不了谎我才坦然接受我其实并不平安

回顾这一年只能以忐忑来形容
因为在我决定向前走的同时我还一直回首从前
我怀念的东西其实容不下我
而我却一直留恋在记忆里
框住了自己

我以为自我催眠能够帮助一些什么
催眠自己要坚强要一直微笑要很阳光
太强烈了反而弄巧反拙
情绪好像干枯了

伤害是痛的所以我一直都不想伤害别人
或许很多时候我错过了对我不错的人
渐渐少联络的或是已经找到女朋友的
我都真心的感谢
只是感觉不在我给不了什么
我不能自私的把另一个人想象成他
也不能背叛自己的心
利用另一个人来忘记他
因为到最后故事里可能会出现另一个我

在我真正忘记他之前
我想还我自己自由
三年期限不和人类谈恋爱
疗伤最多就只能三年
我有太多还没有实现的梦想
就利用这三年我想自己一个人一一把它们完成

《20110101 记得要忘记》♥ matilda

这首给自己 ♥

不要浪费时间了

christmas with hebe ♥

2010-12-30T02:48:00.004+08:00

you better watch out, you better not cry, better not pout, i'm telling you why.

田馥甄 is coming to town ~

okey, i didnt cry nor pout on this christmas cuz i attended hebe [LOVE] promo tour at pgrm, cheras.

when i mention that im going to watch concerts or promos, people would give these reaction.
''cheh, u who also like de ler~ so many idols''
''so rich''

no no no
im not rich and im not that 大愛
its just that i always have free ticket to attend concerts and most of the time im just accompany friends to have fun at their idol's promo.
yes, sometimes i do spend money on concert ticket. i love live music. its worth to attend good performances and good music, reasonable kan.
okey here to declare, i have bunch of artist that i like, but its different from idols.
i like most of the korean artist (especially the handsome ones =x) , taiwan singers and those with handsome faces. i like them cuz they look cute =pp
but i only salute wuchun, hebe, penny tai and sukkie. these are my fav fav ♥ and im crazy over them.
ok larh, before this i did get crazy over zai zai =p

okey back to topic!
i went there quite early to queue up but there were more of them who came earlier than me. luckily i got the vip ticket instead of normal ticket. at least i wont be too far apart from the stage.

the door opens at 7 something so everyone rush to look for a nice place.
i was blocked by 2 freaking tall guy initially. lucky me, im petite enough to squeeze myself into the front row. most-front-front row at the vip zone u know~

while waiting, they shown us to hebe 影音館 in taiwan.

it was not an ordinary autograph session, it is more like a christmas party.
her live was awesome, adores her voice and her songs.
wo ji mo ji mo jiu hao~
her songs accompanied most of my insomnia nights =( emo.

the fans club made her a video as christmas present that made her almost-cry.

so touching right.

tada~ got her autograph ♥

(photo credit to hee jenn wei cuz my compact cam is damn lousy)

went home after supper and photobooth awhile =)

田 ♥

fans club member ♥

hebehousok

matilda's life as a fashion intern ♥

2010-12-28T00:11:00.011+08:00

finally ended my 12 weeks internship at sala bianca sdn bhd with their 3 brand which is
philosophy-men, salabianca and graffitee =)

my intern was fun cuz i get to learn alot of new things and gain experiences.
i get to know what the industry need, fashion people, procedure to launch a product, outlet and etc.

basicly, im working in their design team at their office.
sometimes i might need to follow my boss doing visual merchandise in their outlet.

so what did i do in office everyday?
SEWING! we do alot of beadings, embellishments on accessories and clothing.
my skills are getting so much better now. my fingers felt itchy when im not holding any needle. lol =p

everything is details.

♥

lucky #1, the company was doing a crossover job with mattel.
cooperating with barbie black label collection. producing LBDes for barbies and live sizes ♥

its limited collection hence they have different figures and poses =)

the first time im playing with sooo many barbiesss. love love.

oh ya, and transformers too.
philosophy-men is launching robot collection for christmas =)

yesh, i made all these. hahaha. playing boys' toy.

lucky #2, involve in one of their one-year-twice photoshoot.

it was a 2 days project.

international models are good~

lucky #3, yearly fashion show was held at traders hotel's sky bar.
work backstage as dressers where u need to change for model with the speed of light.

most important things when ya doing an event, team work =)

lucky #4, new outlet and outlet relocating.
the company just opened 2 concept store and relocated few outlet in malls so i get to help out checking stocks and displaying items.
its not easy to build a company, everything is under concern. even the lightings and display might influence sales. it isnt easy.

thou sometime i have to do overtime, but its nice cuz u wont felt bored when u are working with a nice team and people.

lucky #4, colleagues and food.
food + people = social. haha. get to know different ppl and glad that they treat me well althou im still new and im only an intern.

dinner after working =)

cooking tangyuan in office during dongzhi in office. so warm ♥

♥

nothing else i can say but thank you =)
will always miss you guys over there and dak han yum cha. hahaha.

LOVE ♥

20101226

2010-12-26T03:19:00.002+08:00

想念聖誕節
作詞：姚謙　作曲：Chikara Hazama　編曲：劉志遠

為什麼這個世界　節日只為戀人準備　
卻忘了撥出一天　給落單的人安慰
節日裡情人之間　總有感人的情節　
我記得和他依偎　想起來像在昨天

愛還在　我心深處裡面　雖然我口中說那一切都是過眼雲煙
卻掩不住心中的想念

× 我多想　再愛一遍　像那一年的聖誕節
看著流星　他許願　想要再愛我一千年
我多想　兩個人的聖誕節　和鐘聲響亮的誓言
張開雙眼　卻看見　我在離開愛情好遠　寂寞夏天

就算平常的時間　相愛的人們也喜悅
遇到了祝福時節　更像擁有了世界
我卻一個人面對　逃避不及孤單滋味
和張貼琳瑯滿街　歌頌愛的廣告字眼

他　心裡面　是否也有許多懷念
在　這個世界　某個人某段情　很難取代重現

♥

单身的人总会在特别的节日里显得比较孤单
很讽刺的，我曾经在圣诞节的时候和男朋友分手
而之后的圣诞节，都发生了很多不开心的事
我曾经讨厌圣诞节
说穿了，我害怕圣诞节

可能我比较脆弱，容易被回忆束缚
所以一直对难过的事情耿耿于怀
可能我比较不容易痊愈，想起他的时候总很忐忑

我曾经怨恨，为什么总是要摧毁我最喜欢的圣诞节
为什么都在特别的日子里发生那么多不开心的事
我没有做错什么，却像被惩罚
很讨厌，也不明白
或许有一天我会看开这一切，只是时间的问题而已

一切都已经是过眼云烟，我不知道我还在怀念什么

seasongreetings??

merry christmas

2010-12-25T00:51:00.003+08:00

miss rudolf wishes everyone blessed christmas ♥

ended my internship at GPS (graffitee, philosophy-men, salabianca) on christmas eve~
gonna miss all my fab colleagues there.

im officially free till 11th january.
kindly make use of me whoever wanna order valentines' bear from me ya.
further info pm me in my facebook inbox =)

cant believe it! im in semester 6 already!
that will be my last semester before i graduate from college. omg omg omg.
praying hard that my cgpa can get me a scholarship for degree =p

happy birthday baby jesus ♥
ure 2010 years old now. wow.

(christmas crib in my church, so adorable huh)
oh i just went on ntv7 news while they did a shooting in my church. lol so random.

not forgetting to thanks every of who bough me christmas gifts and cards.
so happy, received alot pressie this christmas =)
glad to have u guys as buddies.

sighanotheryear

LOVE ♥ hebe

2010-12-21T00:32:00.003+08:00

not goin to cry on christmas anymore cuz im going to meet hebe herself this year ♥

like this page
and vote for my photo
cuz i wanna meet hebe herself on stage =P
LOVE

she motivates me

jimojimojiuhao

its fine to be lonely

♥

♥ teddies

2010-12-18T11:58:00.001+08:00

its a teddy season!
christmas is coming, ive been busy sewing teddy after working hours.
most of my customers pre-ordered as gifts, the other suggested from ready-made.
not a big business thou, but did spend alot of my time in producing one.

midvalley christmas display ♥ super huge bears. love it!
seriously if i were to bring it back, im gonna throw my bed away so that it could fit in my room. hahaha.

alice convocation. we bought her teddy too.
seriously, was thought to make alice babe a handmade teddy but was too soon after we decided to attend =( next graduation k?

matilda in alice's square hat. was desperate to graduate. soon soon~

xin ling & weny couple teddy ♥
made with imported teddy fur. the texture looks nice kan?
high budget after cotton price increased. one of my satisfy work =)

their first pair of couple tee. miniature version for their teddies ♥

with their names on it. embroidery by hand.

my teddy bears collection.
some made by matilda, some were aunt's work and the other were presents =)

sigh, i didnt manage to photoshoot some of the teddies cuz was in a rush to send them to my customers =(
well i think its okey, still non-stop producing some and get ready for valentines business ♥

every teddy has a spirit.
rules #1, always maintain a blissful feelings when u're creating them =)

creating teddies used to be my achilles heel when it reminds me on some sad incident that happened, sigh. but its all gone now =) i felt happy seeing everyone is smiling when i gave them my teddies.
u may say that im anesthetizing and hypnotizing myself, but i did recover well. being harsh to myself sometimes really help, at least it makes me stronger, mayb this is the best way to help myself.
matilda knows best! =)

teddybearhugs♥

20101211

2010-12-11T00:14:00.009+08:00

为了一段感情而了断自己，能得到什么？

什么都得不到

或许我能明白那种生不如死的难过
不眠不吃却要消耗所有的力量去想那些得不到答案的问题
有时候真的很累
而在那最累的时候，你又无法依赖以往的依赖
感觉真的烂透了

徘徊的勇气，往往就这样让人失去了所有的理智
根本不会知道自己在做些什么
他的勇气错了用在错的地方
以其有勇气让自己跳下去，倒不如再多给自己一点点的耐心勇敢地走下去

想起以前的自己
当时也曾经想过要一走了之
因为是真的受伤了

被抛弃了，难道还要将自己给抛弃吗?
都已经不被在乎了，他（她）还会在乎你的离开吗？
将那份爱，还给自己，更爱自己
结局，可能就不同了

只是过渡期，虽然我觉得还要很多时间才能痊愈
锻炼了好久，发现自己其实真的很不错，只是被错过
他错过了我的美好

为了一段感情而了断自己，得到的代价是什么？
代价只是一句傻瓜

alvis kong 事件，让我回想起很多的事情 =(
真心的爱自己，相信自己是值得的
一切，都只是过渡期

 customade pendant
love myself . believe the voice of your heart . key of success

《20101211 precious》♥ matilda

limited edition hello kitty x diana mini

2010-12-07T20:45:00.004+08:00

xmas present from a very nice friend of mine. taadaa~

was shocked when i unwraped it cuz its
limited edition hello kitty diana mini !!!

longed it for quite a while~ cute right?
lomography x sanrio 35mm film camera.

it comes with a very nice photobook.

accessorized with lomography leather pouch.

thank you for the present. appreciate it so much =)

dontthinkjustshoot!

loud speaker

2010-12-05T02:16:00.008+08:00

so this was the new karaoke i was talking about on my previous post.

it opened around few months ago. my friends went there few times already but i was too busy to joined them until last week.

大嘴叭 loud speaker, they named.
located near sunway giza at kota damansara.

this is how their screen looks like.
the medium one on top is for life shows on tv. middle large for karaoke. the bottom small is the display screen.

the display infront control with remote control. function is more advance compare to other karaoke in town.

touch screen at the side. easy to use and search through songs.

hehhehe. now this is not a problem for korean songs =p

look, they got this neon light thingy. hou-yaou-feel kan? but u'll get headache after a while.

oh ya, its nicholas bday~ the guy who showing the peace sign =)

3 hours wasnt enough for us cuz we know most of the songs. hahaha. hmm how arh?

hehehe, irene so cute~

i always enjoy dueting SHE songs with both of them cuz 3 of us have different tune and we love their songs so much ♥

actually its been a while for meeting them after foundation. everyone went for different coarse and we studied at different blocks. im the only fashion students among them. felt so nice to meet them up again ♥

groupie of the night =)

oh ya, this is their price list. cheap kan?
the only thing is they got very less english songs and some af their mv wasnt original.
food? not bad, reasonable for the charges.

singingismybestwayofreleasingpainfulnesshardshipandstress

december?

2010-12-02T23:47:00.014+08:00

been busy to update my blog recently. realizing i have so much things to blog bout. so, a lil update what am i doing recently.

yaiks its december again. its advent.
my previous advent and christmas was sucks to the max! i havent been enjoying it for 2 years due to some lame reasons. what about this advent?
yea i know, everyone will be declaiming that im emo ing now. actually im pretty fine, dont have to worry bout me =)
it just that my brain have a very-powerful-memories-generator that reflects my pass precious every off and on. im fashionably okey, i guess i am.

back to the topic! to keep my very-powerful-memories-generator for working, my body have to be busy, so that it takes most of the energy in me. busy is good!

my life after 6 wasnt bored. im spending my time very well for this few months.

#1 christmas is coming. been busy doing customers' order during the midnights. my intern was an unpaid one, so have to work hard to increase my pocket money =)

# 2 discover this place in sunway giza. love hanging out with my k-friends at night. hehe. food, duet, shouting, solo, like! =p

#3 YES! year end sales.

enjoy shopping after work. i enjoy walking alone with my smart casual OL look cuz its just look soo smart, intelligent and fits me. hahaha. ohh, discover prada christmas collection, miniture teddies~ adorable right ♥

#4 chasing month!
im addicted to it, attending autograph sessions and concerts. it helps me much in releasing my sweats and energy by shouting and screaming like no one else. focus, focus one somebody else. or mayb i just wanna stay out from my comfort zone. hmm..
well starting next week we have,
wonder girls concert, amite concert, meeting kim hyun jung, jam hsiao concert, star live concert, hebe autograph, fahrenheit autograph, jay chou concert bla bla bla..
of coarse im not that rich to attend all, at least i bough jay chou's. nyek nyek nyek~

#5 drama whole night long~
thanks to pps, hahaha. among tvbs, taiwan series and english series, i still think korean is the best. from their storyline, fashion, scenery etc, they got the package.
recently watching this drama called 玛丽外宿中/mary stayed out whole night. starring Jang Geun Suk & Moon Geun Young ♥

#6 meeting up with old friends.
no matter its was just a simple dinner or hanging out whole day long. its good to spare some time with different people sometimes, cuz u get to know everyone a lil bit deeper =)

#7 soon, what else?
alice convo, family trip, starting up my flea business, oversea trips!

imbusythisadventcomingchristmasandnextnew
yearimsuperfine!!!

last sunday

2010-11-21T22:20:00.002+08:00

was invited to help out / judging this children coloring contest organised by sin chew media cooperation at tropicana city mall. well, i didnt really took part in helping out except the judging part.
its been yearsss~ for doing colouring or joining competitions. afterall, its been a good flashback memories for me. no matter u win, or u lose, the important part its the journey and the heart u put in =)

remember these? the 《小星星》 we used to read during our primary school~
the two bunnies named 小云 and 小吉, yea~ i still remember.

coloryourlifecauseyouknowyouarespecial

♥ sukkie

2010-11-16T23:25:00.004+08:00

matilda is obsessed with unisexual/bisexual fashion recently.
♥ bulky hoodie, boyfriend tee, oversize.
bought an oversize hoodie which is 90% similar with jang geun suk's in you're beautiful. yeah~ couple wear xp

nyek! trying hard.

whooops. sukkie boy ♥

8tv is screening this drama on the coming december u know~
that means im watching it for the 3rd time. hehehe.
eeeii his expression, sooo cute ♥

ehh, im not changing target.
chun is still my beloved =p

the confession of a emo shopaholic

2010-11-11T23:06:00.011+08:00

people tends to tell me ''hey, u should really get a rich bf to support for your expenses"
so sarcastic =(
nah, im not that kind of girl. i don't even spend my parents money for shopping and entertainment.
im independent in financial, quite. spending money that ive earn and saved or there is one thingy called ptptn xp

well recently, a friend of mine have pointed weakness how i manage my money.
thanks to her ♥
she told me ''you're not pampering or loving yourself, but you're spoiling yourself. you cant spend to overcome your stress all the time. forever you wont be satisfy''
ya, something like that.
think its true. i used to give myself reasons like

''girls should be loved''
''i should have love myself more''
''im gonna regret if im not buying it''
''oh, its the coming trend. nobody has it yet. mayb i should get one''
etc etc.

for all the while ive been spending too much, especially when im pissed off/stress out/emo/sad.
cant named myself as a shopaholic, big spender suits more.

i skipped school and work for the sake of im emo, need a 'walk'.
i go for expensive spa treatment and mani pedi.
i went to watch repeated movies for several times.
i enjoy expensive food and beverage. especially coffees.
i bought clothes without trying them.
i bought alot of useless toys and stationaries.
i bought alot of extra gadgets to decorate my gadgets.
i buy cause i like, happy and fulfill my satisfaction.
i bought alot of facial products which didnt used up.
i bought expired magazines with attractive cover.
i bought alot of useless fabrics.
i spent for getting member cards.
i spent more when i got member cards.
i only buy quality control stuffs.

im lazy to wait for bus, so i took cab.
i'll change my outfit on the spot, buying it if i think im not confident with what i wore out the day.
i cant control myself whenever the promoters are pushing me to buy.
and more..

argh, shuddup! not gonna continue this. messed up bratz.
thou these facts didnt spend my whole savings but bit by bit it eats up.
when u spend, u wont feel satisfy. u want more and more for the next time. its like, u got lv gucci prada, now u want hermes.
it seems to be my weekly routine every weekend when i hang out.
surely, sometimes i regret what i bought when the time i reach home, but im still repeating the mistakes.

now the bad thing is, my friend said, im influencing people =(
whenever they was still thinking 'should i buy' i will tell them ''buy larh, u dont buy, confirm u will regret. by the day u came back, no more ady~ that time u dont cry'' xp
kinda true but should really put more concern before paying. right.

realizing my wardrobe's railling is gonna fall down soon.
got lot of clothes but i only wear parts, some didnt even remember that i bought them.
gonna-expired skin productss, not-my-age toy and too-cute-too-funky stationaries if filling up my shelf.
ish! should really make some changes.
im bad =(
for cant control my itchy hand and stomach, my bad. sigh.
well i believe most girls did this when we're feeling bad. right. woman's weekness.

i wasnt like that in the beginning, so, i believe i can change.
there is no way back to the beginning at lease changing my way to throw my temper and control stress. hmm.

pamper and love myself but not spoiling
yes, thats the words! =)
*save money $*
yes, i can =p

internship ♥ photoshoot

2010-11-05T22:48:00.015+08:00

20101007

Day One Salabianca Photo shoot
Theme - Barbie ♥ Salabianca

the 2nd week during my internship, i was asked to help out during the company photo shoots.
yes yes yes! so coincident that the company is doing a crossover with mattel barbie. u know, barbies accompanied my childhood~ and if u guys have been following my blog earlier, i did a barbie collection of my own regarding to 70's fashion. cuz, barbie is one of the reason why i study fashion ♥

H.Lin.Ho Studio, we went.

the first things we did is to arrange all the accessories for the styling up later.
this belt is my fav among all, so detail~ sewn and covered with buttons ♥

Barbie Basics™ Collection 1.0
salabianca is coming out with all the same LBD designs of our human size. go get one~

i want these 2 ♥ who's going to buy for me huh?

my boss, larry is having a meeting with the photographer.

and us, steaming clothes and arrange them onto the railing .

skinny arms is going to have muscle soon. aiks.

meanwhile, the bosses is photo shooting the barbies.
look, they have their mini studio =D

im not a girls toy~! hahaha.

plus size barbie, aika. she's 19.

perfect side view.

hairstyle by andy ho and team.

wigs the brought. so fuzzy~

make up by m.a.c

i want them!!

setting up the background.

my big boss, tino.

andy ho is funny =D

dressing up the barbie. big barbie.

fav shots ♥ she really looks like a mannequin right.

behind the scene.

aiko's 裙下之臣. hahaha.

more than 8 hours of shooting, the model felt stress up already.

she started to make fun to relieve.

diva ♥

aika, barbie and me ♥

me and v from andy ho hair studio.

♥

20101008
Day Two Philosophy-men & Graffi tee Photo Shoot

Theme - Robot Revisited & Technology

matilda is holding the camera for behind the scene shots on the second day since there is enough male dressers for the model. and yea, im too small for a 190cm height guy. the second day was less hectic cuz male model doesn't need to change make up and hairstyle.

my accessories shots. not a good slr photographer. still a beginner.

repairing clothes. look so 贤淑 huh. hehehe.
perasan*

doing the slumber shoots for graffi tee, first.

i shoot model. V shoot me. lol.

sexey boy~ haha.

matilda self shot.

the studio owns alot of unique antiques.
i like this, retro saloon chair.

do-it-yourself signboard.

we ate chicken rice.

i want them x2

touch up time~

imagine this shot without the make up artist. hahaha.
crosshand, mata jeling. hmph!

philosophy-men photo shoot after lunch.

the whistler's mother. hehehe xp

he got 9 heads. so tall!

pjcad and andy ho's students.

with the model =)

more photos on facebook =D

hecticlifevsexperiencinglife

20101103

2010-11-03T23:40:00.002+08:00

当那玻璃般的心碎成一片一片的时候
我发现那破碎的镜片里面依然能看见他
不同的只是他已不再完美了
碎片里的他出现了更多角度的脸
让我透彻的看清了我不曾发现的面容
一向爱恨分明的我在怀念他的时候显得多么难堪
我微笑当我想起我们的时候
我愤怒当我想起那无奈的结局
曾经希望自己意外失忆让自己忘掉所有与他有关的一切
却又发现自己宁愿难过也不想忘记他

我单身一年了不甘示弱的度过这一年
我留了他最爱的长发来报复他看不见的温柔
头发都已经那么长了每一丝都像是思念的纪念品
有时候恨不得一把剪刀把所有都剪掉剪掉那爱疯头的残留物
然而却发现自己原来是那么的不舍

暂时不想恋爱了屡屡次让自己结束单身的机会我都放开了
发现自己好像已经忘了心跳的感觉忘了感动忘了悸动
以其说我那么残忍的让自己寂寞下去倒不如说让自己每一天发现更多的自己
不同了我变得不同了
小小的躯体装了满满的力量消耗不完的坚强
我不再当爱情的跟班不做它的奴役
勇敢了我不再刻意的不提起他也不再假装地说心里已经没有他
伤口热腾腾的感觉也已经渐渐习惯了

回想起来爱他爱得那么得傻劲却又那么的可爱
我就是曾经的那么可爱
一切可以那么的无条件没有原因的爱着
笨笨的蠢蠢的还有纯纯的
爱了就是爱了这样的感情一辈子或许就只能出现那一次
在现实的世界活着依然会想起那白日梦的自己也可以说是一种消遣吧

爱情之所以没有课本是因为它是一门没有解答的学问
它像科技拥有很善变的脸却让人追求迷恋
感情的世界啊那么多面怎么聊也永远聊不完
爱情专科我虽然还没毕业却了解了不少
就让时间拥抱我走下去走到那一天的领悟

傻瓜难过够了吗？
继续帅气的逞强倔强
我的心像暴走族享受着寂寞

《20101103 我今天发现... 》♥ matilda

hype my ♥ lookbook

2010-11-03T01:34:00.002+08:00

vintage floral emboidery dress, somerset bay
lace up oxford heels, flea market
russian doll pendant, nicci accesssories
treasure box, kuantan
wood carved bangle, somerset bay

Matilda L. is on lookbook
add me and gimme a hype!

youdontneedexpensivethingstodressgood